His World

My oldest comes home tomorrow.

He has been gone a week.  I miss him.

He's busy doing good deeds and having fun as I sit here and think about him.

Earlier today I decided things have been more peaceful this week.  

Don't get me wrong, I'd rather have him here, but the quiet is nice.

He's not a loud kid, nor is he home much when he is home.

But get him near his brother and bicker, bicker, bicker.

And the coming and going.....constantly.  God forbid he sit and chat with his mother.

I always hope after the mission trip he will all of a sudden enjoy my company.

Didn't happen last year so I don't expect it to this year.

He only has 1 month until school starts.  Not much time until he's a senior.  

A senior.  Wow.

Where has the time gone?

There was a day way back when.....when he wouldn't leave my side.

I was the best thing in his world.

I bet deep down inside he still thinks I am.

Ride

For me this blog has always been about my journey through my many races I have done.  The ups and downs of training, racing and daily life.

I think it's time for a change.

I quit training and racing about a month ago.  I've been doing it for 10 years.  I've completed all the distances I wanted with the exception of an Ironman.  It was just not satisfying anymore.  Added more stress to my life, more anxiety, more pressure and more panic.  That is not how I want to live.

Fortunately my blog title has little to do with triathlons.  It has to do with trying hard no matter what your doing or going through.  I try hard every damn day.

So with that being said our family has a huge 2015 ahead of us.

Starting with our remaining 2014 and onward our list includes:

My youngest learns how to drive
My oldest turns 18
My youngest will be confirmed
My oldest will graduate High School
My youngest will turn 16
My oldest will go off to college

I will be married 20 years next year
My husband turns 50 next year
Somewhere in there my parents will move to Hilton Head

My gut tells me we will also have 1 or two more big things to celebrate, but those remain unknown for now.

All these things are huge.  They will all have celebrations and I'm sure tears will be shed.

2015 will be scary, exciting and a roller coaster for me I'm sure.

I'll use this space for all those feelings.

I will try hard with every moment to embrace it, enjoy it and let the tears flow when I need to.

I'm ready for the ride.