Not enough time

Time.......

It goes so fast yet so slow at the same time.

Feel like I've been training for this 1/2 ironman for at least a few months and yet it's only been a whopping 11 days. 11 days. Only 11 days.

This is very hard. This is harder than I thought it would be. All I want is a day to do what I want and not a day to do what I have to do. I suppose a lot of us would like to have a day like that. Between the 3-4 hours total I spend training, icing, driving to and from the gym and the much needed shower each day I then have to focus on the puppy. I just can't put her back in the crate for the afternoon just because I want to roam around Kohl's with no purpose other than to take some time for myself.

Take today for example. Got up at 5:30, hung out and fed Chloe. Then got my oldest off to school by 6:20. Played with Chole until 7:30 and got some laundry ready to start. Woke up kid number two at 7:30. Got him fed and off to school by 8:15. Meanwhile I started the laundry, took the dog out a few times, ate breakfast, got caught up on emails and played with Chloe. Once she started getting tired around 9:30 I made my escape. Put her in her cage and got ready for my workout at home today. Jumped on the treadmill a little before 10. Ran just over 4 miles with 8x30" sprints at a 12% incline at a speed of 7.4 on the dreadmill. After 40 mins I played around with my new saddles and decided to try out the cheaper of the two I ordered. Took awhile to get it set where I wanted it. I then did an endurance ride for 1hr and 15mins. Nothing too harsh. Kept the HR in low Z2. It's now noon and I head back upstairs to save the puppy who looks at me like how could you just leave me in here?? Take her out, strap on a couple of ice packs on my never ending injury get myself a water bottle full of a protein drink and a few almonds. What now as I start to shiver from my body cooling down? Play with Chloe. She conks out pretty quickly. I sneak out of the kitchen to take a shower. Change the laundry, jump in the shower. No time to actually do my hair as I know the dog is roaming free in the kitchen and we are doing so well with the housebreaking I want to be there when she scratches at the door. Back down stairs by 1:15. Take her out again, make lunch for her and myself. She finds a sunny spot by the door and decides to make the most of it. I envy her. I watch as she soaks up the sun and her eyes start to close. Oh to be a puppy right now. She's right behind me taking in the sun. If I move from the computer she will wake up and the process will start all over again. So I choose to sit and blog. It's now 2:10. I could put her in the crate and head to Kohls. However, remember the quick shower? That doesn't include make-up nor actually taking the time to do my hair. Right now it's up in a ponytail still damp as it will stay that way until I go to bed. My outfit consits of sweats and a race t-shirt. Standard attire. I'm in no shape to go out shopping. Not to mention I'm tired!

My oldest will be home in just over 30 mins anyway. I like to be home when he gets home. There are times now that I'm not. He's 13 now, no reason I need to be home. But there's something to be said for your children to come home to a parent. As much as they claim not to need us I know that being a stay at home mom, who's actually home when they get off the bus makes a huge difference in their lives. I may only see him for less than 5 mins as he gets something to eat then he's off to his room or to the xbox, but he smiles when he sees me and we get to talk about his day for a minute or two. That I suppose is worth more than a trip to Kohl's.

The rest of the day I will be spending time with Chloe. Her most active part of the day is the late afternoon and then again after 7 or so. Homework will need to get done. Mine and the kids. Dinner will need to be made. I'm looking forward to Survivor tonight. My favorite show. I keep saying someday I want to be on that show. Right now I'll be lucky if I keep my eyes open to even watch it! By 8:30 I'm exhausted. 9 I'm done.

That's my day today. That's pretty much every day for me. With the exception that I normally head to the gym to workout and the workouts are harder. Today was an easier day. Kids are off tomorrow, that will throw me all off and Chloe! But at least it will be a change of pace.

Tomorrow consists of a swim workout early in the morning before the kids get up. About 3000m total. Sat and Sun will be a huge challenge. A 2:30hr bike ride one day and the other a 1:30hr run followed by a 1hr bike. Two and a half hrs each day dedicated to the ironman. That finish line in June better be like no other I've ever seen.