My changes in attitude are in full effect.
This past weekend my thoughts changed yet again.
Training is not that important. Of course it's important if you want to do well in any given race. It's important to follow a training program for the most part. But in real life situations training sometimes has to take a back seat. Mine is doing just that this week.
I decided to throw swimming out the window this week. There just isn't the time, strength or want to fit that in the schedule. I will also be missing a long run. But I will have worked out 2.5 hours a day for 3 of the 7 days. So enough to maintain my fitness.
My week started out rough and I never made it to the gym Monday. Instead I chose to spend my 2.5 hours sitting outside on a blanket with my parents dog, Oreo. She had what we think was a stroke over the weekend. It caused her to loose the function of her back legs and even holding her head up was a chore as it was drooping to the right. I sat and chatted with the family. Petted her head. Watched her struggle and sleep. Fed her Jimmy John's, duck treats, really, whatever she wanted. Those 2.5 hours were worth more sitting there saying goodbye to her than to be swimming and spinning at the gym. After I left it was only a few hours later she was put down. She was 14 1/2 and a great dog. Well loved and well taken care of. We will all miss her.
Along with Oreo getting sick my grandfather is failing. The man is 96 and I'm not sure how he's made it this far. Just like Oreo he is deaf and blind. He is starting to get delusional and rageful. Hitting people and seeing people that just aren't there. Right now we are told it could be a blockage in his neck causing a lack of oxygen to the brain. Or chances are with his vision disease delusions go along with it. I say it's because he's 96 and his mind just can't keep up with his heart. He has a heart of a 70 year old. It's that 70 year old heart that keeps him alive. As much as I don't want him to leave this earth I can't imagine him being happy or in any condition to enjoy life. It's very sad.
I'm hoping that this weekend will inject some happiness into the family. I know there will be tears but they will be tears of joy. Proud parents, proud sister. My sisters are graduating this weekend from college. I can't tell you how excited I am to have them come home. To get to see them whenever and not be counting down the days until they leave again. Now I know they don't feel the same. They would stay in college forever if they could. Leaving their friends and life they have known for 4 years will be very hard on them. But everyone has to do it at some point and I know they will come to terms with it and be happy that school is over! Reality is about to smack them in the face. But I know they will do as well in life as they have in school. I look forward to sharing that life with them.
So training............nope not that important this week in the scheme of things. It's all about family this week.
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