Itsy Bitsy Progress

It's Friday.....TGIF....Yahoo it's Friday.....Fantastic, made it to Friday, yada, yada, yada as my mother says.


So why do I feel let down? Why do I feel it's an up hill battle? Why do I feel like I'll never get there? Today I've asked myself why all day. So far I'm struggling for the answer.

I have done nothing in the form of exercise since my Monday's Mutt Club spin. Could I of continued on with my week and did the routine workouts? Yes I probably could of. But this is when it gets really tricky. Is it better to continue on and ignore the nagging pain in the leg or do I lay off and finally find out what's wrong? This pain started in April , I took off 9 weeks to let it heal. Within 10 days it's back. You have got to be kidding! I spent Tuesday getting x-rays, Thurs getting an MRI with my feet taped together and I swear there was a spider on my leg for the 40 mins I couldn't move. OK, maybe it was just a string from the towel under my knees but it felt like a spider. Now I wait until Monday morning for my answer. Why do I have a feeling that the doctor will come up with nothing? Why do I think that this goal of mine just got 10 times harder to reach?

I think I've put on about 5 lbs this week. I've eaten everything I can get my hands on. I do that all the time but mostly the training takes care of that. I have been craving carbs, comfort foods, sugar all the time. Stress, lack of sleep, hormones will do that to you. Man oh man this is getting really hard..... I made the decision today that after he tells me what's wrong on Monday or what's not wrong, I'm headed to the gym to try and heal my mental wounds. Running may be out but I can swim until the fish come home..............

Tomorrow should be an interesting day. I'm playing Sherpa. I'm not a good Sherpa. Dave is an excellent Sherpa. I would grade him an A. I however would grade myself a C. See the problem is I don't want to be a Sherpa. I want to run. I want to run the race tomorrow. I don't want to watch and cheer them on. I want to run and cheer us all on. A race I will miss due to this unknown pain in my leg. Could I run through the pain? Absolutely! I have run with pain much greater than this in a few of the marathons I have done. At mile 3 of the Myrtle Beach marathon my knee was killing me..........What I have to remember is that this 9.11km race tomorrow isn't my goal. It's the 1/2 iron man that's waiting for me. It's my first setback to getting there.........


BUT I WILL GET THERE!