Wake Up!

My head is not in the game. My body is not in the game. I want to be done with the game already.

It's a recovery week. Maybe that's why I feel the way I do. Always looking forward to recovery week and then you feel like crap when it gets here. My recovery week is someone elses peak week. It's all in perspective. For me it's a lot of shorter, less intense workouts. Monday all I did was spin class. Yesterday was a 2400m swim and a 5.5 mile run. Today should be a 45 min run but I have some other things to do today that will keep me out of the house for most of the day. Will it get done? Probably not. Just for the mere fact that my head has checked out. If I feel guilty for not doing it maybe just maybe I'll fit it in tonight before dinner. Tomorrow I will swim another 1500m and bike for 45 mins. Friday will be a rest day spent in the car.

I will be missing my first official workout by weeks end. I am supposed to bike for 2.5 hrs and run for 1.5 hours on Sat and Sun. That will be replaced by my first tri race of the season. Sat I will be racing for about 1.5 hours. So the 2.5 hour training day will not be happening unless I would like to bike my way home from Ohio on Sunday. Not to mention if I race hard enough I hope to be too sore to train on Sunday. Sat race is a sprint tri at Miami University. I have done this race two other times now so I know what to expect. I know how the race is run. I know which hill is the impossible one to ride up. I know whom I need to beat and no it's not my father. Please head and body, get with the program. Join me for the race will ya. Check back in by Sat morning. I need you.

I think this is the first time that I have not been anxious about a race. Not even thinking about it much actually. I know I'll be doing it. I know it's only a few days away. It's the first of the season. This will give me an idea of where my training is at right now. It's a sprint which means you are not so much an endurance athlete but a hard core sprinter. That usually gets me worked up as I am not a sprinter. But no, I'm fairly calm dealing with the day to day activities which seem to be allot right now with the kids. It's only Wed. Maybe by Friday it will all hit me.

My eating has been bad this week too. Way too much junk and way too much chocolate. I was 2 pounds away from my goal weight for June's race. Make that 4 away now. I have plenty of time I just have to get back in the game.

Well wasn't this the most negative, non uplifting post! My goal for today. Drop the attitude and get with the program. I don't have to workout to do that I just need my head to get back in the game. Quit whining. I chose to do this. I chose to train for a race that consumes a good portion of your life for 5 months. Wake up, eat right, have some fun, train hard and kick some butt on Sat. My goal time is anything under 1:29. To medal I would need about 1:11. Not going to happen. I will earn my mental medal when I pass this particular 21 year old "boy" that I would like to strangle. Long story. Maybe for another day.