Caught Speeding

I went from basically being sedated on a drug for two days to being on speed for 3. 

Once again my Dr is trying another medication for the anxiety.  This time we are solely concentrating on the anxiety, not the urgency to run to the bathroom.  As it's the anxiety that makes my body feel as if I need to go and I need to go immediately! 

Drugs and I do not get along well.  I have always been very sensitive to anything I take.  Tylenol PM?  Why I might as well run a marathon after I take it.  NyQuil?  Took that once when I was about 18 and thought I would have to go to the hospital because my heart was beating so fast and I couldn't breathe.  Antibiotics of any sort keep me up all night long.  I cringe when I have to try a new drug, as I know there are going to be serious side affects.

So for 3 days I have been on Sertraline.  Side effects?  INSOMNIA.  Now I'm the first to admit that I am not a good sleeper to begin with.  But taking this medication...........Holy Crap my mind just won't stop.  Last night I thought about everything from which tape I'll use when I start doing more house painting?  Frog tape or Blue tape?  To what would it feel like if Chole got hurt and we had to put her down.  Would they allow me to be with her as her eyes closed?  I lay there thinking this is ridiculous.  I should just get up and go to the gym.  The pool should be pretty quiet at 3 am. 

Now there are pro's to this.  I am wide awake at 10 pm.  I used to struggle with staying awake till 9.  No problem now.  I have been getting a lot done.  Lot's of painting, training, chores, errands, decorating......the list goes on.  I just don't stop.  I was at about 6 stores yesterday and 2 today with the kids.  While I had the anxiety both times I was able to calm down and get through it without freaking out and panicking.  I actually had some moments that I forgot that I had a problem.  Peace.  It was nice.

What's is a bit of a surprise is that today training was hard.  It was a long swim day and I was tired after doing 2350m of various drills and speeds.  I then headed to the treadmill for a 4 mile run.  Was supposed to be in zone 1 and 2.  Well I couldn't keep it out of zone 3.  That is not good.  My heart rate was 10 beats higher for the same speed than usual.  Now is it the medicine or lack of sleep?  I'm going to have to keep my eye on that as it could become a bigger issue.  

I promised myself I would stick with the drug for a week and hopefully gut out 2 weeks.  How long my body can last with basically no sleep is yet to be determined.  I will have to weigh those pro's and con's when the time comes.  I think after week one I will cut the pill in half and try that.  It will be difficult as the pill is about the size of a sprinkle! 

Another side affect, loss of appetite, and weight loss.  Well all right, I'll take that.  I have already noticed that I'm not scavenging for food all afternoon.  I suppose the scale will start showing that soon.  Who needs sleep? When I can get more done and lose weight?