I am running on fumes. I have not had a decent nights sleep in two weeks. I don't ever get a good nights sleep but now it's much less than before. The bare minimum I'm working with. The problem is I never quite get to that rem sleep. Plus once I wake up I don't fall back to sleep quickly! For example last night I was awake at midnight. Why? Not sure. Then again at 1 as my husband got up to take the pup out. Then again at 2:30 as I heard her rustling around in the crate hitting the sides of it banging around. This got me thinking about the whole housebreaking thing and why does our dog not seem to mind messing in the crate? Finally drifted back to sleep at about 3:15. Alarm goes off at 4 for my husband to get up and run. How he does that I'll never understand. So I wait for him to get up leave the room. Then I listen to him take the dog out again. Then I wait. I know he's running, but what is the dog doing? Was that a whine I heard? No I don't think so. I know she's in the crate but I swear I heard her up whining to get out. It's about 4:45 at this point and I choose not to get up. If she's whining too bad I just can't get up. I drift off. Then at a little past 5 I here the footsteps. Husband back from running time for his shower. I lay there and just cry. This is so hard. Two weeks of nights like this can bring a person to tears. I've cried many mornings this week. I love my dog and we will somehow get through this. I have a feeling that it will be a few months before we can go to bed at 10 and not have to get up until after 5. I suppose I'm going to have to figure out how to fit in a nap during the day when the training gets really intense. I can't train for a 1/2 iron man without some REM sleep. My body and mind need to repair and recover during those periods. If I don't get that sleep then I get headaches, stomach aches and a sore throat just like I did last night around 7.
So with all that said I didn't work out yesterday as I had to take my car in for service and it's a bit away. I can't get that done and go to the gym for 3 hours. Puppy won't go for that. Today I have to go pick up the car. Same puppy rules apply. However instead of 3 hours at the gym I was able to hit the grocery store yesterday and I have a couple of stores to hit today after I get the car. I should be caught up on the shopping, laundry and house cleaning by the weekend. The lack of training this week really isn't a horrible thing. I won't have a designated rest day for 14 days on the training schedule. So I might as well get it now and rest the tired body for what's to come.
3 days to go, until I venture into new territory.
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