Is it?

I'm wondering if this year is it? Is it my year? Is it my year to prove my potential? Is it my year to PR? Is it my year to over come injuries and battle on to cross that magical finish line? Is it?

One of my resolutions this year was to concentrate on myself. Last year I spent a good portion of it taking care of others. Whether it was my Mother, Father, husband and kids, there always seemed to be an issue. An injury. An illness. A surgery. Or just someone who needed support to get through a rough time. I suppose that things happen and I will always be there to lend a helping hand. It just seemed like it was non stop. One thing after another. I'm afraid that this year may be much of the same. So how do I help those who need me yet not give up myself and my goals in the process? It's not like I'm training for a 5k and can work around everything. This is a 1/2 iron man we are talking about. If I'm not swimming, biking and running, I'll be eating and sleeping. Will I have the time to help and support those who need me? I truly have no idea how people train for an iron man, have a family and work outside the home. No clue how that is done. Maybe if I was a better sleeper I would be able to handle more. Every once in a while I get a great nights sleep and it's amazing in the difference I feel the following day. I would give anything to sleep like that all the time. But I know not to hold my breath as it's not going to happen.

I'm afraid that this is the year that I'm going to need the support and help. I'm also afraid that it may be hard to come by. My family is so involved in their own personal issues and drama and sometimes I feel pushed aside. I consider myself a strong individual who pretty much tells it like it is. I can come across as though I don't need any help. I can do anything and do it well. Well yes that may be all true but I still very much crave the support and help. Everyone wants that, it makes them feel loved.

So I'm 2 weeks away from starting a 5 month training plan for the 1/2 iron man. 5 very overwhelming months. I try not to look at the training to closely as it scares me to death. One day at a time, one day at a time. I will do all that I can for my family and friends, but if I'm going to cross that golden line then I'm going to have to put myself first. Everything else has to come second.

Is it my year?