Are things progressing?

I'm not really sure.

I feel like my head is not in the game. Not into training.

That's not good.

How go I get back into the game?

Focus.


I have a duathlon this weekend. Lucky for me my husband keeps reminding me. Otherwise I would forget to show up. That's how bad my focus is right now. As of today I'm not sure I will even do that race. Let me just say that UTI's are not a friendly training partner or racer. I can't seem to get it under control. I'll probably be back in the doctors office on Friday. Always something.

My shin is back to screaming and aching. I happened to touch the quarter size spot the other day when it was aching. I thought I would jump off the bed. Tears instantly came to my eyes. It hurt so bad. What makes this so sad is that it will never go away. Even when I took 3 months off within 10 days it was back. It's not really shin splints. It's the periostenum that is pulling away from the shin bone. As I run the tendons pull the periostenum away. I have many tears in it and the more I run the worse it gets. There is no blood flow in the periostenum which is why it won't heal. Only thing I can do is try and tape the legs so that the tendons don't pull as hard in that area. I have dealt with this pain for over a year and a 1/2. I wish I could just run pain free once in awhile.

Focus.

Someone go find some for me.

Pain.

Someone take it away.

Who is that someone going to be?

It has to be me.